Today is 12july, 2016, didi's turning 33, and 2 years to the day mittul told me he doesn't want to speak with me again, but that isn't why i have mustered the effort to write to this blog, which as is evident, has been seldom. Third post in 2 years, and a handful of ones written on paper, it is worth it, that i am typing this out on my mobile phone, so please hear me out, and ignore the typos.
Every day of these 2 years has been as long as a lifetime. Everyday i have gotten up and been grateful for being alive, for now i know the beauty, the grace, the wonder of being alive in the human form. The initial days/months were tough, and i know i am not kidding when i say i didn't know if i would have survived or passed away to another realm. Those days brought exquisite, unparalleled experiences, synergies (of me meeting surrounding energies), expansions, seeing the light that makes everything, "talking" to the trees.
Each day since is a blessing, no less, to be able to survive, breathe, comprehend the world and be a part of it without being too indiscreet of showing what i have seen and experienced. But, i digress. The reason why i came here to write this post. What i saw/heard/smelt/felt today in meditation.
The serpent dance. This whole world, perhaps even the mighty universe, is the dance of the Divine. I can call it dance because it is beautiful, it is exquisite, it is chaotic, it is moving, it is not random, and yes it has a source, an origination, an inspiration. I do not yet know what the source wants. The serpent dances. Energies flow, the cyclone goes on. The center is stable, quiet, still. The surroundings are a whirlwind, and this is no exaggeration. I am not sure if i am making sense, and perhaps it is not meant to make sense, for this is farther than the mind can view. This will be relateable to one who has experienced it, seen the view. To the other, i dont know. And perhaps its not for me to know.
The dance of the serpent. Only when we meditate, when we get quiet inside, real, real quiet, do we begin to hear this hum, be able to see this dance. It pervades everything, for it makes everything. It is the underlying wave. All the 'things' in this world are vibrating at a certain wavelength, and this wavelength of the serpent connects everything. It is found everywhere. It defines everything. But you can't just wish it and see it. You need to grow silent. Very very silent. Not just on the surface. But on the inside. Go within. Get calm. Meditate everyday, not hankering for "peace", or feeling of "oneness". Do not chase experiences, that isnt meditation. The reward of meditation is meditation itself. Keep doing it. Some days you wont feel it, thats ok. Because i have seen today, that even on days you dont feel anything special, you have contributed to the quietitude.
The dance of the serpent underlies everything. Keep growing silent, and the serpent will you show you its treasures. Therein lies your path, your choice. She will show you the path of money, the path of love, the path of relationships, the path of companionship, the path of family, the path of fame, success. And then the next level, you just need to keep meditating, keep getting calmer and calmer, when She will let you choose the path you desire. Money? Go stand there, on the "highway" where money flows crazy, and get it. As much as you can desire. Relationships? A different highway. Companionship? Another highway. She will give you what you ask for.
Listen to me. Dont fall for it. Keep going. Ask for Moksha. Dont fall for the mediocrities, when the treasure lies ahead.
The dance of the serpent.
The highways.
The flowing streams.
The cyclones, the typhoons.
You, quiet, sitting still. Testimony to everything.
Patience will be rewarded. Perseverance will be rewarded.
Dont fall for the temporary pleasures.
A soul can choose them, its ok. That lifetime will then be spent experiencing that particular thing. Its not bad. But you will come back. To tread the path again. To face the choice again. Over and over again. Until you are not moved by it. By food, money, pleasure, sex. None of it you shall have. You are bidding for the highest of them. Because all of the others require you to come back. Only one doesnot. Choose it mayank.
You can make this one your last, if you choose well.
